Feeling a little emotional, so please bear with me while I vent before I explain the pic.
I’m limping towards finals week (next week), just barely hanging on as I say goodbye to my students with whom I share a strange bond. We got through this anomaly of a semester together, but we barely know each other. In a normal semester, I’ve had time to bond with these inspiring young people, talking after class or before, chatting in the hallways, giving them advice like I was given when I was in college. Today was my last day of Zoom class, and it just felt so… empty. Normally, we would have a potluck while students finished in their peer review groups. We would all reflect on how we’ve grown thougout the past few months.There would be chatting and laughing. Some would hug me on the way out. Today, I waved goodbye to a bunch of static pictures as some unmuted to say thank you before pressing that “leave meeting” button. Did they get anything from my class? Was this a waste of time? Could I have done better?
Past habits dictate that today would be the exact kind of day when I would binge. There would be trips to multiple fast food places, all food eaten in my car to hide the shame from everyone in my life. I would find a public trashcan to dispose of the evidence so no one would know.
Anticipating that this week would be tough, I prepped my Light Caesar Dressing and defrosted some salmon. If I wasn’t up for cooking, at least I could throw this together. And if I chose the binge, so be it. But at least I had another option.
I’m super proud of myself for choosing to eat this, honestly, decadent-tasting salad! The fast food would have left me feeling even emptier, sick, and bloated. Tonight, I feel satisfied and proud of myself. I will have binge days in the future, I’m sure,,and that’s okay. But today I chose to stop the spiral.
Recipe link for the Light Caesar Dressing is in my profile –>litecravings. Or google “lite cravings Caesar” and it will pop right up. This dressing is almost always inmy refrigerator. It’s truly better than anything I’ve had in a restaurant and is only 1 SP for 2 tbsp or 2 SP for 1/4 cup!!! You can’t beat that.